闷

I was kept my happiness and excited recently, until the news reported the disaster of japan"tsunami , I am feel sad and cry for the people who faced the difficulties now. I saw the tube who are taking when the tsunami is hitting. That is terrible and horrible fact which I can't accept, the world became strange. It will happen anything that I could not expect. I can't imagine if I be attack by this such disaster what I will do ? I think I just do screaming and screaming till the sea water bring me away. I really hope the world do peace and everybody satisfy with the things around especially appreciate the time with your love, friend and family. I miss my mummy..

今天真的很生气。。生气那些没有用的男人。。生气那些假情假意的人只会在人面前演戏的人。。讨厌那些没有责任感的人。。我真的很生气。。。。。。。。。

有人说气都气饱了。。我终于知道原来气真的可以喂饱人

最近。。

最近的心情常常起伏不定，因为我的好朋友她要回国了，其实要在英国要找一个可以讲话的朋友真的很难。。要找一个不求回报的朋友也很难。。我一知道她要走的那一天我的心真的很痛，从来就没觉得她原来可以那么的重要。。也许是习惯了，戒不掉。。

开始觉得我开始过着没有灵魂的生活。。一个人来来回回在这个不熟悉的世界里，发生什么事就只有我。。那种寂寞真的很难说给谁听。。

今天又在fb上看到让我说不出痛的消息。。我真的不知自己在想什么。。我只能靠音乐来疗伤。。对着电脑发呆。。对着我的部落格说话。。。。。。。。。。。。。。

妈

刚刚看完了一篇很感人的故事，亲情永远比什么都重要。。

那个故事叫“勇敢的阿麽”。 从他的身上我看到了我的妈妈，说到勇敢她可以为了养活我们一家人比谁都还要勇敢。她可以放下他的尊严，牺牲他的一切就只是我们兄弟姐妹开心的长大。

我从小就是一个很小姐的女孩，妈妈什么都顺着我，我也是一个很挑食的人，一旦煮的不是我爱吃的菜我都不吃，但我妈都会踩着自行车去打包我爱吃的东西。我以前都不会为别人着想。

中学毕业后我就在吉隆坡读书，交了男友就很少回家看妈妈，只对他说我的功课很忙。出国读书也都是为了男朋友。直到在国外和他分手后我才发现原来家人才是永久的。 分手后我哭了三天三夜，真的一点都不夸张，等我冷静后，我打了电话回家，我妈问最近怎样阿？我又开始想哭了，只有硬着头皮说还不是一样。 那时我就对自己说活着是因为父母，而不是为了其他人。妈妈养育我这么大，当然不希望我为了一个男生就哭哭啼啼的。我告诉自己马上就要站起来。

我想我应该快快回去看看我的老妈子。。我真的很想她

sad

I already more than 24 hours did not answer my dear's callings. I cried whole night due to he deleted my lovely studied photo in uk. that got thousand my pictures saving in his hard drive. When i discovered all is deleted by him, I very angry and frustrated for all those happen on me. Firstly , i angry due to that all is my sweet memories and i am sure it wont be take the same pic at same place with same people. Secondly. the reason i angry is because he did not take my things carefully. third, because he did not feel guilty after that..only sorry!!! sorry not cure....

I dont know when i will forgive u, eventhough it will take a very long time.

Snowing

This morning when i opened my eyes, i saw a deep snow covered my window...

My dear is just leaving me and going back to sheffield, and me need to wake up and force myself to touch water for cleanning face and brush tooth to prepare going out working.

Everytime its snow then i will think about the time we are together, we are beginning in snowing, do u still remember???

Avatar

3d movie- avatar, that is the 1st 3d movie we watched in uk cinema.. Beginning, we really dun understand what the story is going on.. But the middle of it I realise the avatar are meaning for orang asli. Haha, but they are more powerful and know how to ride horse and bird once their USB port connect to each other. Hehe. It spent almost three hours to go. It makes us suffering to sit probably , the ending is quite nice, after movie we go next door to having nando as our dinner..dear, I want to tell you the love is so powerful, it can let a human change to avatar due to love, and their can be long lasting love each other.. I hope we are as well